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Tuesday, December 29, 2015
- Almost every TSEN are from USA, follows by Malaysia -
the meaning of TSEN is AWARD !
the reverse of TSEN is N E S T
Posted by Maico Jen at 2:31 PM
Monday, November 23, 2015
my first child has specific language impairment.
As she was my first child, I didn’t have experience. I didn’t know what to expect and I kept on asking why ! why !! why !!!
Although I wasn’t a linguistic person but I have been able to communicate in a special way. I talk to people in a way others couldn’t connect. I thought I was special. But why does my very own daughter had to go through the exact opposite? Is it because I am special so she has to pay for my gift ? Was it me who abuse my power given by god that now god took away something from her? I ask and ask and ask … there wasn’t any answer.
I couldn’t get up for a long long time. Every time I looked at her, my tears drop. Sometimes out from the eye lids, some other times tears just swallow back on.
One day, I don’t know why nor how, I asked myself a question. If she were to be like this, having this disability forever in her life, will I love her any less?
Suddenly I see the white in my grey world. The answer is so obvious, so clear, so doubtless that I will love her the same if not MORE because with her disability she will need more of my love. And I will have nothing else buy to give more and more. Even if I have already given all of me today, I could still give her more the next day.
Suddenly the world has changed, well at least my world has changed. Every time I looked at her, I smile. I know deep down inside, no matter what happen, I will love her the same.
I started hugging her to sleep every night. I talked to her as if she is my friend. I told her about my happen moments, I told her about my sadness. I pointed at the pattern of the wall paper and said, “see? This is rose, this is a symbol of love. See how our room is full of love?”
Sometimes I hug her so long that I fell asleep standing. Then she woke me up, wanting more stories. I am the worst when I sing but I sang twinkle twinkle little star to her every night, every single night. She never complains. My wife ran to another room watching drama, haha ~ I would too.
She demanded more and more till sometimes I broke down too. I couldn’t be the nice dad anymore and sometimes I have to admit I may have scolded and shouted at her. She was totally frighten and she got worse. Every single time I have to gain back control on my own, felt regretted, totally disappointed with myself … apologized to her, and hug her in tears again.
Very soon, I learned there is really no point for broken down. If my love to her is really as strong as what I thought it is. I would have been able to minimize all the hardship we have to go through together. And focus merely on what else can we do better next?
14 years later, now, she is a teenager. She became the love expert among her friends despite she never date (officially). She touches people life like how I did in the past. She is no longer close to me as she used to before she went schooling. But I have no regret, she is no longer like what I worried she might become.
Perhaps I was lucky. Perhaps it was me who keeps talking to her although she couldn’t really understand a word I said when she was a baby, perhaps it was my anger shouting to her, perhaps it was me slept standing that night … that has changed her. I will never know, and I don’t need to understand life. Because even if she is not like what she is now, I will still love her the same. So nothing else will matter – between my love and my daughter.
At first I thought I have saved her. But very soon I realize, it was her who has SAVED me. For I LOVE her, unconditional love, that nothing else will come between us. It is her allowance me to love her back that has kept me alive till to date.
Dear daughter, I love you and wish you the best in your subsequent journey ~
One day I asked my mom, was I as talkative as I am now when I was a baby. My mom laughed, NO, you were having specific language impairment when you were a baby.
Posted by Maico Jen at 1:38 AM
Tuesday, May 05, 2015
Unfortunately the notion of "taken for granted" is a part of love did not receive much acceptance. Yet I observe many relationships continues to be taken for granted. Once a person found love and being loved back, he shall be contented and enter a comfortable zone. Once he is comfortable, he"assumes" she knows exactly what he knows; He "expects" to be known exactly how he felt ... he took things for granted.
If, unfortunately, she is not on EXACTLY the same page, this "taken for granted" situation usually would felt with negativity and eventually reduce the closeness in a relationship.
which eventually leads to
Finding someone else
love me like the way I love him
~ . ~ . ~ . ~ . ~ . ~ . ~ . ~ . ~ . ~ . ~ . ~
One of the common solutions in most people perception is NOT to take things for granted. That is easier said than done. Human nature, habits and even surrounding influence all leads to ONE STATISTIC - Not many people can escape from the nature of taking things for granted, especially when you truly love someone.
Then comes the alternative option. If you knew you are not the type of person who are discipline enough to "CONTROL" your feeling then you are bounce to look for new love. Hence the only solution is
Fall in LOVE
with the SAME person
AGAIN and AGAIN !!
So the 3 possible options where you SHOULD get married are
- You know him, he knows you, you were made for each other, happily ever after.
- He understands and could CONTROL his feeling, hence never taken you for granted.
- Learn the methods to fall in love with the same person again and again . . .
If you don't have any of these skills, perhaps marriage is NOT a suitable path ?
Share if you think there is another method could make a romance relationship lasts forever . . .
Posted by Maico Jen at 12:09 AM
Friday, April 03, 2015
Posted by Maico Jen at 7:16 AM