Were you stressful ?

It has been more than 6 months I don't need an alarm to wake up early.

Dreams will kick in and wake me up every morning before dawn. Before taking up this job, it was an act to prove myself able to do what others can't. No one else dare to take the job. For those who took it, none stay.

It started with tons of challenges. It started with all things kept in place. For every potential future outcome, 3 possible solutions were prepared for it.

Soon things get bigger than me. There are governments, there are Families and there are legal abusers . . .

All these are pushing me over the edge YES. But as time goes. I did capitalize the situation. I let my nightmares run wild. Quite a handful of times, I obtained solutions within those nightmares. And then on the 2nd morning, one more god damn issue is solved.

Just as I get used to all these work stress and able to get a tiny grip. Last night . . .

What woke me up is a death of a close relative. Suddenly none of previous nightmares matter anymore.

Are you stressful in life ?

I guess I will never find out how much I will push myself until I will stop.